Rhonda had been attending for counselling, but there appeared to be something which was creating a block to further progress, however it wasn’t coming out in the sessions. We agreed that a Transformational Healing session might be of benefit. Before the session, I received the image of an axe lying across Rhonda's lower back. The clear message was that she wanted to hurt people with it.

The healing began with Rhonda relaxing as I moved the energy through her crown chakra and into her spine. I then introduced the axe image and the notion that she wanted to hurt people. I asked if this was too strong a statement – she reluctantly said no. She said that she hates this part of her self. I also said that she appears to get some satisfaction from doing this, which she reluctantly agreed to. She said that she struggles to stop herself, and then feels very guilty afterwards. In working through this in a counselling fashion, I was able to help her see that it was her anger at her own painful experiences that lead to this desire to hurt people. And that she was acting-out what had been done to her in her childhood. The benefit was that she didn’t have to hide and be ashamed of this part of herself, and be more forgiving and gentler towards herself and others. Consequently, we then could explore her upbringing more honestly as Rhonda had ‘come out’ and admitted her shame at this part of herself.

The image then came to me of her waiting by an arched doorway. Rhonda could identify this as the place she would wait, sometimes for hours, to have her parents notice her. Her parents would be busy working in their shop. Rhonda would wait looking for attention, typically not being noticed at all, and had developed the feeling of not being significant to anyone. She was even scared that as they did not notice her, they might lock up the shop and leave her behind. This connected her to a deep sadness which was important for her to be aware of, which we worked through.

After this palpable sense of sadness, an image of an imaginary friend came to me, which Rhonda confirmed. After describing this ‘friend’ to her, the message was that Rhonda needed to connect to the fun and light-heartedness that kept her going through her childhood years, that this ‘friend’ brought out in her. In exploring this, it became clear that as Rhonda spent so many hours waiting to be noticed by her parents, it was hours each day that she wasn’t playing. She needed to bring this sense of play and lightness of being into her everyday life on a regular basis.  

After this session, Rhonda has been able to continue working through these issues in counselling. Her anger is greatly diminished, and her shame-based need to defend herself is reduced. This has allowed her to be gentler with herself and with others and made her happier!