Mandy had been attending for counselling, but a deep seated fear of speaking up and being noticed was limiting her happiness in life, creating a deadness in her. We agreed to have a session of Transformational Healing.

Before the session I received an image of a metal animal trap with nasty sharp teeth. It was clamping down on her throat, crushing her voice box. This imagery was obviously very relevant to her previously identified issues.

The healing began as usual, helping Mandy to relax while I flowed energy in through her crown chakra and down her spine. Once I introduced the imagery of the animal trap we were able to explore her lack of voice. Sadness then arose in Mandy, which she had felt before. I then saw an image of Mandy as a child standing head down looking despondent, and holding something in her right hand. Mandy confirmed that she had a favourite soft toy in her hand.  She was looking at her father who was looking away, not noticing her. I was able to help Mandy explore how she felt, feeling alone and sad – unnoticed.

She then had a memory of hurting her toe on the back step at home, with her mother trying to comfort her. I could see this image and it was clear that Mandy was rigid, resisting her mother’s attempts to comfort her. We explored how Mandy’s mother was often not there for her, but when she was, Mandy’s anger did not allow her to receive comfort. I asked if she was able to relax and respond to her mother’s comfort, which she was now able to do. This felt very different for Mandy. It was the first time she felt love towards her mother.

Another memory came to Mandy. She was very young, around 2-3yo, sitting on the floor having taken out many of her father’s beloved vinyl records, now strewn all over the floor. She could see her father standing tall over her. He was not angry, but Mandy could see the look on his face – he never wanted her in his life. This was very clear for the first time, which finally allowed Mandy to know why she felt this way at times. I wanted to know if Mandy could go to her father, but she could not. I asked what she felt in her chest and abdomen. She identified a red cloud of anger in her solar plexus (3^rd chakra). I assisted her to draw it up and exhale it out through her mouth to let it go. This taught her a way to ease her anger until she worked this issue through.

These were important emotional understandings for Mandy, which allowed her counselling to progress. She could see how she had closed off from her mother who was not often available for her. She could also see how her father had never really wanted her, even though she did not know why. She is now able to speak-up to her father and not be influenced by his criticism and disapproval, which has been an important step in finding her voice.